A Safe Place

6 “And I say, “Oh, that I had wings like a dove!

    I would fly away and be at rest;
7 yes, I would wander far away;
    I would lodge in the wilderness; Selah
8 I would hurry to find a shelter
    from the raging wind and tempest.”
After coming to the end of all wishful thinking and every thought based on defensive hope I started to pray these verses. God provided that safe place through legal separation and soon it will be divorce. I woke up in the middle of the night saying out loud “I hate divorce”. God hates it the same way I hate it. He hates the abuse that broke faith and covenant. As I look back it was a bit broken to begin with. To begin with things were terribly wrong but it’s did easy to be pulled in when one is young. 

Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB) holds more true to the grammar of the original Hebrew text of that verse that gets so misqued in Malachi, and is likely closer to the original intent, not every version says it the same.

“If he hates and divorces his wife,” says the Lord God of Israel, “he covers his garment with injustice,” says the Lord of Hosts. Therefore, watch yourselves carefully, and do not act treacherously.

It’s the hardest thing to file, being the one to file because of injustice and hateful abusive things being said to me, things I wouldn’t say to my worst enemy because those things cut at the very core of ones being. God is just as grieved as I am and He has provided for me seperation and divorce as a safe place for me and my children. 

I still pray keep me in this safe place, just knowing 85 percent of women return to an abusive spouse. Divorce closes that door for me. I think it’s closed anyway but there is a vulnerability there if I don’t divorce. 

My thoughts on this Sunday morning. 

The Apostle Paul Was Sinning When He Wrote That

“Alexander the coppersmith did me great harm…”
Shame on you Paul for making that so public. Almost everyone in the world with a bible read that for centuries, so unchristian of Paul.You need to be quiet Paul and keep that private,you are sinning by writing that, is what some Christians would say.
There comes a point when you can say it, I wonder how long Paul tried and then said to himself.”This guy’s name is going in a letter.” Not in a vengeful way but in a way to warn others and to bring validation and healing to others who had been harmed by this Alexander and one’s like him.

People of Other Doctrines – the new drunkards and gluttons

I’m seriously seeing this division- those who are not divisive and those who are.In my mind it’s almost like there are two types of Christians those who love one another and those who don’t, funny thing is there is scripture that says they will know we are His disciples by how we love one another. I don’t hold to infant baptism, when friend’s of mine infant son was being baptized in an Anglican church I would have attended if I could have it was out of state but I prayed Jesus would bless their day and time and their life and their little son, they believe in Jesus just as well if not better than I do so what if we see baptism slightly different, we certainly agree on the spirit of it.

I will say be careful about drinks, but God gives us wisdom there too, I had a glass of wine and a pint of ale out Saint Patrick’s and it was the sweetest time and it certainly wasn’t a stumbling block for people I was with, I’m the one who would be more tempted to over drink than them, lol.

Tim's Blog - Just One Train Wreck After Another

A friend sent me an email saying she’d started getting criticism from those in her blogging circles. The criticism? She was perceived as interacting too much with me on line. I was not proper company for her to keep. The doctrinal lines were being drawn.

I’ve heard this before from people trying to tell me who to interact with. Sometimes people tell me to be careful of who I hang out with and sometimes they tell me my friends are bad people because of their doctrine. The criticisms can some from someone being Complementarian, Egalitarian, Young Earth Creationist, Old Earth Creationist, Evolutionist, Calvinist, Arminian, Pentecostal, Catholic, Eastern Orthodox or any other matter of doctrine.

This happens in non-church circles too, of course. There the criticisms can focus on political matters – too conservative, liberal or libertarian –  or they can relate to social issues – capitalist, communist, environmentalist, gun rights…

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Every Appearance of Evil, and the Billy Graham Rule

Thank you , this is so good! This is Jesus, this is how Jesus wants us to interact with one another.

My Only Comfort

I’ve been gone and out of the loop for a while. The debate over the so-called “Billy Graham” rule, in light of the comments of Mike Pence, went on without me. That was probably a good thing.

But every generation renews its battle with the horrible interpretation of 1 Thessalonians 5:22. You have probably heard it:

22 Abstain from all appearance of evil. (1Th 5:22 KJV)

This is generally interpreted by small-minded men as an excuse to avoid interacting for good in the lives of others. When the passage is poorly translated, and taken out of context, it appears as if it is saying that one should avoid doing anything that someone else might take as being evil. Thus, lazy and guilt-ridden men can avoid interaction with “undesireables” and still pretend to take the high ground.

For example, I heard one man say that if he were driving alone down…

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Put Away The Box, PLEASE!

The certain Anglican bishop I mentioned in a

previous post was of course the brilliant N. T. Wright. And I want him to remain as such. At the moment and I’m predicting its going to be a long moment I attend a non-denominational Calvary chapel affiliated church.   My former and still much loved fellowship was non-denominational Free Methodist, there’s something freeing about being in fellowship with people from different backgrounds and who have grace for nonessential doctrines. I do not want all Spirit led believers to agree with all the particulars of my current place of fellowship, I don’t even agree with all the particulars of the affiliation of my current place of fellowship, nor my former fellowship. I don’t want us to all be the same. I tried fitting into molds, I only pop out and stand there looking rather stupid. God uses all denominational bents. So unless your particular fellowship is toxic, i.e. spiritually abusive, God may want you there I say may because He is God and may want you somewhere else for other reasons you don’t even know about, I felt like I was starving in the stress of circumstances and started to attend my current church where there is more of a focus on scripture and the empowerment of the Holy Spirit in one’s life, so there are many reasons a person may change churches not just spiritual abuse.  The Holy Spirit most likely doesn’t want your favorite theologian to convert to your particular camp, he or she is not going to fit into that box, if she is a pastor she is unfortunately too much out of the box for some people simply because she is a woman. The best teachers don’t even fit into their own box. They are often outside of it using the distinctions of their particular fellowship to build up people who hold to the same non-essentials of belief and reaching all of us who have sense to see the gospel is bigger than a few differences of opinion. I have been gravitating toward love, a brilliant understanding of gospel and nuance and compassion in theology not whether it’s infant or adult baptism, communion or Eucharist, old earth or young earth, rapture or a gradual building of the church that ushers in the second coming. Those things don’t matter except as a personal understanding for oneself and the funny thing is one may change one’s mind on any number of theological things in the future. So I will listen to the teachers who have the Spirit of Christ and the arrogant, loading people up with burdens they themselves will not help move with one finger I’ll pass by.


I think wisdom and discernment is key along with the Spirit of course  after all the Spirit gives wisdom. I think we in Christendom put up with a lot of stuff that makes no sense. I don’t mean that God always makes sense at first in what He asks us to do, when He asked Phillip to take a certain road so he could speak life to the Ethiopian official, He didn’t tell Phillip the sensible details, He only said “Go this way”. That had a certain Spirit about it and brought forth good fruit. If the no sense is bringing forth no fruit and a sense of false guilt, and confusion to fellow believers or fellow human beings it is not of Him. Christendom is doing the same fruitless no sense over and over and ranting “But God doesn’t always make sense, and the Bible says to do it this way”. I like a certain Anglican bishop from across the water because he has sense and the Spirit. I like a certain blogger who has the profession of being a Judge, lots of sense needed there and the Spirit. There are two other teachers I like almost as much, yet one piece of “Uh oh don’t do that” thought I have had toward the one was when he had people of all sorts up front confessing sins. NO! In this day of trolling no, people will lie, some people are complete phycopaths. This is not a little church group where you know one another don’t have perfect strangers do this unless you are sure God is leading and maybe God was but I have my doubts. If some things are confessed there are legal issues and I don’t mean “I stole a car and took it for a joy ride” sort of legality, who cares, but real crimes of abuse against others. Next to zero percentage of those types make a change no matter their tears and confessions. Potential mess, potential trust from people they harmed and those people WILL now be harmed again. Be careful in this for sure, as always if it’s real lasting real fruit will follow. 

The other speaker was happily speaking of church planting. I love this guy a lot. I completely agree with his take on the Holy Spirit. I find him helpful. In talking of church planting, he said, “people plant churches” he changed that and stressed “only men should  plant churches”.   Hmmm he just disregarded fifty percent of the church planting in China, which is done by women believers. Maybe in his affiliation or denomination only men plant churches but seriously don’t take your own affiliation so seriously. God does what he wants and it’s not wise to disregard half of your fellow believers out of roles you think God doesn’t will them to have. Spending some days praying with Seekonk Free Methodist who were praying as one for American Missionary Rev. Phyllis Sortor kidnapped in Nigeria I’m thinking how can one pray properly if one thinks Reverend is a role she should not have. There is no sense in that. Do not give me “God’s word says”, give me “These are the different interpretations, this is how I interpret it and this is what others say”. What is giving good lasting fruit, what is not causing angst or marginalizing persons, what interpretation is not putting God in a box, let’s go with that. 

Christ, the Church, and Marriage

It takes some courage for me to move forward into separation and now soon to divorce and I found this blog wonderfully helpful.

My Only Comfort

I have a beautiful muscat grape vine. Last week I pruned it. Then I felt bad, since Jesus is the vine and we are the branches. Maybe in my pruning the vine I misrepresented the permanence of thee Covenant of grace. Jesus will never cut us off, will he?

Last night, before I went to bed, I locked my front door. That made me feel bad, since Jesus is the door, that maybe I misrepresented the kingdom of heaven, by locking people out of my house.

I guess that when I turned off my lights at night, I could possibly be communicating that I walk in darkness and not in the light. I should probably keep them on.

And I could go on, except now it is getting silly.

In case you wondered, these ridiculous examples show how important it is to interpret pictures and parables correctly.

Take, for example…

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Moody Rain

Rain falling, almost incessantly falling for seven days. Almost because once in a while the sun would come out to tease, and to paint rainbows, but no longer than a few hours at most. Then it would pour or drizzle or mist and sometimes it would steadily fall in big drops then small drops. Sometimes it would briefly engage in a thunderstorm. It was a moody rain.

The Patriarchal does not Allow A Women to be a Berean

​The problem with the patriarchal and some of the complementarians is they don’t allow women to question especially if a women is sure of the answer. She is not allowed to be a Berean because if she addresses a man and says “This is what I think that passage means or this is how I take that using the whole of scripture, she can easily be disregarded by him.”

Now the Berean Jews were of more noble character than those in Thessalonica, for they received the message with great eagerness and examined the Scriptures every day to see if what Paul said was true. (Acts 17:11.)

 It is okay if she throws it out there generically in an article or in conversation, (unless of course he takes it as addressing him) but if she spacificly addresses that is teaching. And wow is that oppressive to constantly be thinking “Oh am I saying too much here, am I verbally questioning this in such a way it comes off as teaching” so it limits her words, her enthusiasm, her influence.  A wall is already up in his mind for him to “not allow to teach” so he is going to smirk and be condescending in a way he is less likely to treat a man.  So if a women comes out with “I know what scripture is saying here and I highly question your interpretation” she gets disregarded and accused of breaking what Paul is thought to say, when actually he is having the condescending know it all lord it over constantly teaching attitude of the woman or women Paul was addressing in that verse and some subsequensive verses in Timothy and else where, I’m not getting into those here, the Berean verse shows us and scripture shows us as a whole what those few verses do not mean.  The women in those churches are walking on eggshells and constantly worried that what they say or write might be regarded as teaching. I read a blog post where a woman was saying women should not blog specifically where it might be teaching a man or men might regard it as teaching them something, so I was thinking “You can’t have freedom to  disagree over nonessentials and you don’t have freedom to call out false doctrine.” The Patriarchals  may say she can disagree but he in reality can accuse her of teaching whenever he wants and disregard her. Yipes!